Glamour Meow TWO

2011-06-26T07:42:00.001-07:00

2011-06-26T07:29:00.000-07:00

You think cheerleadings not a sport.

Okay so some girl says cheerleadings not a sport, she says its not hard, she says we are all these prissy girls with pom poms and short skirts.

I’d like her to come to one cheerleading practice and see if she can do what we do. We tumble, stunt, jump and dance. You say running is harder, sure its hard i never said it wasnt but i think people should just stop for one instance to realize that cheerleading is just as hard.

It doesn’t matter if your in level 1 or level 5 it all has its moments were its soo hard you contemplate quicking and than you just step on the mat. Its hard to describe what happens when you step in the competition floor. Even though the crowd is screaming, everythings silent to you, your mind goes blank, and all your worries go away. Everything is focused on hitting that stunt, landing and sticking your tumbling pass and makings sure you dont land on your neck when your doing a standing back tuck.

I’d just like to say sure you run miles but we have to too. Someone talks during a stunt my team does 50-100 push ups non stop, someone doesnt do the routine full out every time laps around the gym not just once but what seems like a million times, someone giggles during someones tumbling pass burpies till your legs are falling off.

Please just accept cheerleading for what it is. A sport

2011-06-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

why is it that we always forgive those who do us wrong , those who do not care about anyone , any one but themselves . why do we limitlessly give chances to those who , in all truth deserve nothing at all . no sympathy , no forgiveness , no love . why is it we always find ourselves crawling back to the ones who only give us pain ? why do we care this much , why must we love those who only love themselves . why do we set ourselves up for these heartbreaks ?

it's crazy to think how different ur life would be if u never met those people that changed everything .

2011-06-24T09:19:00.000-07:00

SHUD I CUT BANGS AGAIN ? HAHAHAHAHAHA !!

2011-06-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

helo helo bukak seluar nmpk telor ! telor kecik ? telor besar ? hahaha ! inside joke with my cheer mates he he he .
tadi cheer training start pkl 9 pagi . ksiao ! surprisingly i sampai siang har har har har . tk nk kena saman kan . itu pon cikgu ngan coach dtg lambat . maintain . kalau tahu aku dtg lambat !! hahha .
nari training byk org koyak mulot . scary . lol
i dont wanna talk about training . hahah .
but ooh ! i love the dance steps ! hehehe . bt no shaky2 . haizz . boring !! hahaha !

after training . headed to tamp wif amirah , ikhsan , ida and eiss . catch a movie . rasuk . $8.50 wasted just like dt ! nabei . not scary at all !! -_- oh ya ! since i gt no partner .. ida and amirah pampered me in the cinema ! so sweet ^^ hehe love u girls !
bought koil . den home sweet home .
sphyntrix training was cancel so tk jadi jumpa bby . lagi pon dua2 penat haha .

reached home ajeeee ... haizzz .. #sadstory mode
im sorry mama for giving u the fucktard attitude . im too shagged . mentally and physically . i need my rest . its not that i dont wanna go out wif u n its not that i dont love you . i seriously really need my fully rest and ur understanding . i knw ive been busy with my cheer . i knw ive not spent much time with family . i know that ma .

i cried after the incident . im dissapointed with myself ..
i cant remember when exactly the last time me n my family spent time together .. izzit my birthday celebration ? think so .. sighh . april huh . haiz . few months bck ? pretty long . ikr .

hmmmm niway i gt NDP rehersal tmrrw . need to hairstyle those little kids hair haha . i hope esok boleh balik siang mcm the previous rehersal . aku nk jumpa bby la plsss . windu sgt ='(((

2011-06-23T08:09:00.000-07:00

dis is my handsome boyfriend . i love him so much buahahahahahahahaha . i swear i love today !!!!! hehehe . fetched bby frm his place . den headed to jurong east complex . thanks to the lifeguard for chasing us away or else we wouldnt had so much fun at sentosa hehehe . the reason he chased us away bcos bby was wearing DRY FIT top . so tk boleh swim . wtf ? helooooo ? -.- wte u dickhead ..

i knw i look horrible without make up . bt i knw khairul loves it when i look ugly . so dt no one will look at me . hahaha . niwayyy we changed plan n decided to go sentosa ~ oooooooo

what a super duper last min plan !! haha .

i love this pic below ! bcos i look so pretty !!!! hehehe

bby bought nasi lemak for our lunch and we ate sumwhere around there and guess what ?! we got chased out !! nabei . muka kita muka kena halau la beh ! ahhahahaahhaha !

pic below is my fv. !!! heheh handsome or what !!!

had so much fun with this kambing ! we did our own stunts too ! ahhahaha . style baru punya ! and bby cant swim awwww . i pon tk leh swim !! hahaha . and i kept on making him drowning bt i did save him u know .. *cric cric* by giving him CPR .... yeap . barang baik dok !!!

make our move around 7 pm . ydayda we bathe together at handicap toilet . ooo notty ! i loike ! HAHAH . ok no la . just kidding ! hahahaha ! feeling2 jap . mampus kalau kita mandi sama2 . tk keluar toilet dok !! sampai esok pon tk bersih ! HAHAHAH ..

blabla . ok dis is how i look lepas mandi . dgn rambut basah . tk senonoh !!

hahaha sexy kan ? i know . heheh . headed to vivo . met fliq at top shop .. my bimbo so pretty oi . i jealous !! chit chat for a while . fliq step busy je ! ahhaha .

bought sushi for dinner ! eheheh den dudok di luar vivo sambil makan sushi ngom ngom sedap nyaaa hahaha . lul .

and yeaaaa home sweet home ~ tapi sedihhhh balik siang sgt =( psl bby working . aiyaa . night shift . balik pagi .
and esok pon sama =(( tk boleh cheer dgn dia . psl working night shift jgk ... kau kerja kat lorong ehk beh ? asek2 night shift ajee . HAHAHAH .
alaa night shift ke tk . esok kita tetap jumpa ^^ yay ! jgn kau bgi aku false hope sudah . nanti PUTUS teros !!!!!

oooo ya ! n i just put down the fone with bby hehehe . *mantel mode* n we talk about the future ...
bby: aku tk leh imagine kalau kau jadi isteri aku .
me: ohh so u nak i jadi isteri u la ni ?
b: mantel ah tu .
*silence*
b: ok la kita byk berdoa okay . insyallah .

HAHAHAH FUHH !! TERROR !! hahaha =p sayang kau sayang hahah ! okay toodles . i wanna eat ! den halo2 sama bby . hehe

2011-06-21T03:43:00.000-07:00

i miss doing advance stunts . its unfair hw things has change now .
i tot the team already make a deal about it during e previous training ? and it seems that it was only action speaks louder than words . those ppl whom suppose to be flying got REPLACED by the one who didn't come for e past few trainings . its unfair . and the feeling sucks . bt yea we just suck it up and smile eventhough it's killing us inside . we r doing this for our coach so ya . smileee =))

fucking sad . feel fucking unwanted and its fucking boring . goddamnit . sadly cant do anything .

and the saddest part is im not flexible ! even tho i stretch every time im still not flexible . i cant do scorpion nor heel stretch . ah fuck la . i hate my life !!!

and last night , before i went to bed . i spent the night crying about it . sad much . totally disappointment .

sorry for not being skinny .

oh look cheer pictures ..

i want this for my wedding .
i want a cheerleader husband .

and oh ya . i went to e mall n i forgot to wear my bra !! luckily rambut wa panjang geng ! hahahahhaha . malu siolzx !

2011-06-20T10:23:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder what life would have been like if we never met . it would have been simpler , yes . easier maybe , but then i realized that it also would be incomplete . i'm blessed to have you . i love you so much khairul and i wouldn't want to betray my love to someone else . hehehe . i wouldn't let my past to get in the way of us being together now . and if there is another person come along & steal you away from me she gonna be in deep shit because wt's mine is mine . i'm selfish . i dont share my valuable with someone else . especially you . no one can have you except me . buahahahaha !

2011-06-20T10:13:00.000-07:00

I hate today and i dont wish to talk about it . fuck my cheer life pls . too fat . not flexible . and useless . i dont stand a chance anymore .

anw thank you sweetheart , hehehe .
and i bought v.s. bag .
and this too .

2011-06-19T09:42:00.000-07:00

day 3 , AMAZING !!!!

AND LOOK AT HIS SHIRT ! AWWWW ^^

2011-06-18T10:45:00.000-07:00

WAA MY BBY SO HANDSOME RYTE !! BBY WHY U SO HANDSOME ?! hahaha ! i thank god that we can wts app for a while just nw tho it doesn't make any sense of us wtapp-ing hahah ! we so tiute ! but wte it is at least i gt to talk to u for a while thru fb ! at least i knw u're safe or not hehehe =) i love u bby see u tomorrow !! I LOVE U ! hehe

2011-06-18T10:32:00.000-07:00

I'M BORED . hw bout a random post .
oh ya forgodness sake its a tube not towel haha ..

oh look my ugly face before putting my make up on !

dis is after . not much diff . haha bcos i snap using webcam . and i still look ugly -.-

2011-06-18T10:28:00.000-07:00

MORE PICS WILL BE UPLOADED !

2011-06-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

it took me 3 hours to upload all of this pics below bcos blogger is being such a bitch . selow nk mampus !
anw i had a great time with my one and only hot baby last thursday ~ hehehe . omg ! i love wasting all my time with him yknw i dont mind doing it every single day !! hehe . we catch a movie dt day .. ladaland . great movie ! yet scary . fucking scary . i actuali wanted to go out frm the cinema yknw hahaha . and the ending fucking sad . and yes i tear . embarrassing moment . bt its okay at least he wipe away my tears !! HAHAH .

the next day , friday . i cried like a crazy girl lol . i still cant believe bby is leaving me for 3 days . i knw its only 3 days not 3 month or 3 yrs but still ?!! hahahah . i kept myself busy and imagine dt bby busy kerja . coz usually he seldom text me when he is working haha . and sumtimes its e whole day haha . so i gt myself busy with cheer for day 1 . went to skool for genesis cheer . and everyone is not in e mood.... ANDDD i tak pakai make up . lol . after dt headed to sphyntrix cheer . one word isuck . i cant even do a pop twist !! i lost all the feeling of flying . sigh .. got myself injured too . lol . after that down wif fever again -.-

the next day . day 2 . headed to ndp thingy . tk da maksod aku datang -.- tk buat apa2 . haha . off to plaza sing . catch a movie wif e hairstylist . poopers penguin ? wte spelling . ceriter itu chomel siiik . must watch ok ppl ! hahah . bought new wallet . and i dont know why . did porno video for maya . HAHAHAH ! had a great time wif them ^^

and tmrrw myb im going to plaza sing alone to buy a new bag for myself .. and myb meeting bby afterwards ? heheh ok more pic will b uploaded soon ~ taaa

oh before i end !

I MISS YOU KHAIRUL !!!

2011-06-16T09:32:00.000-07:00

Sweety ,

thank you for today . i really had lots of fun laughing my ass out with you ... infact , whenever i'm with you i always love each and every bits having u around me . honestly , it was hard for me to let go of u just now even though i know its already late and time to go . i'm sorry for being selfish not wanting to let go of u because this heart still wants to hug u so tightly ! and it's even harder for me to say goodbye to u ='( i know its only couple of days but people don't know how hard it is for me to survive without hearing from u a day .. and bby your fragrance still linger around me . mhmmm are u near me ? ... ohh yea in my heart =) have a safe trip with your family . i will be waiting and missing you always .. i will be strong too .

i hope u love this gift from me .

2011-06-15T08:38:00.000-07:00

HAI I GOT A DATE WITH THIS HANDSOME GUY TOMORROW !! and i dont knw why i am like so shy to meet him yet so excited !! plus nervous ! HAHAHAH !! i miss him plsss . i hope i wont be clumsy and make a fool out of myself tomorrow . OK THAT IS SO NOT ME . hahah !! i hope i do sumthing stupid and clumsy tomorrow so that the two of us can laugh like nobody business . HAHAHAHAHAH ! now thats me ! hahaha . perangai aku mcm monyet itu pasal dia sayang aku . ok best . gonna rogol him tmrrw . gonna bring him sumwhere dark .. so its easier for me to rape him . HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA !! i love u mucnchekinnnn ! my kambing ! my pak pandeh ! my my my my everything !!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehe . okay mantel mode !!!!

he gonna leave me all alone this weekends !! so im gonna go to little india and find scandals over there ! can ah ? HAHAHAHA !! sad sad ! sampai hati bang !!! sampai hati abang tinggal kan bedah !!! putus !!! hahahah tak ehk tk mo . nanti aku siram kepala kau !

2011-06-15T08:18:00.000-07:00

went out wif the cheer girls nao ~ oh ya before that ! i got a free mcflury ice cream yknw !!! hehehehe !! thank you hidayah ^^ i think i was wearing my lucky bra la dts why !! hehehe .

den headed to orchard n i tap out using my house key ?!!! THATS STUPID . IKR .. den to far east . makan . and shop . den berak . hehehe . ydayday off to dhoby to get my stuff . and met kish over there ~~ blabla i had to go off early coz tmrrw i gt a date wif sumone heheheh . so must b home early sikit laaa . and in the train theres this guy watching porn so i watch along too . heheh . its a boring porno video like seriously . i dont understand . i think i can do it better .. HAHAHA !!

and soooo had a long day waiting for my bby text msg !! bby busy working =( busy patrol here n there . patrol bilik aku tk nak ! haahaha . currently am flirting wif him he he he . *mantel mode*

2011-06-14T22:52:00.000-07:00

ok last update for today den im gonna do my prayers n siap !

been busy wif cheer . dts explain why ive nt been updating dis blog ~ harr . shagged plus lazy ! everyday reach home late haiyoo . so anw yesterday was the performance . we screwed up the dance part even tho the ppl over there compliment our performance . zzzz . but whatever it is we got the cheching cheching hehehehehe ! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

ok im too lazy to update la ! haha ok im off to town later .. so kalau nmpk teguh k . HAHAHAH !! WTF PERASAN HOT STUFF LA SIKIT ! *sarcasm =p hahah ! coz ppl in fb kept on saying that line HAHAHAH . ok toodles !! and i cant wait to meet mr handsome tmrrw !!!!

2011-06-14T22:35:00.000-07:00

AND LOOK WT BBY GAVE ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXTREMELY SWEET !!! I WANNA GO INDIA AND MARRY HIM NOW !!! WITH JUST 27 BUCKS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COME BABY LETS GO N TAKE BECAK N CYCLE ~~

He made dt card for meee . alalal comelnya ! sadly he told me to open it up the moment i reached home =( kalau ada di sampingya confirm plus chop aku dh rogol dia atas bawah psl sweet sangat !! chomel nyaaaaa pak pandeh aku =))))

sayang kau !! esok aku rogol kau k =))) and oh ! i drop sumthing at his place =p u knw imma girl who always get paranoid over a littless thingy . so i travel all the way to his place and drop a get well soon card and famous amous lolly biscuit at his staircase ~ suppose to b at his door step but sadly he was outside his house so i drop it at his staircase instead . and lucky me ! nasib i naik tangga kalau naik lift bocui ! hahaha . dh la aku naik tangga mcm perompak hahah ! lps tu dgr suara dia kt tingkat 5 lol ~ n i scratch my head n think of e next plan haha ! it took me 10 mins to think of e next plan HAHAHAH !!

and called him up n ask him to check out the staircase anddddddddddddd he turon lift and hug me so tightly !! HAHAHA !! i shyyy hehehehehe . love u bby !

2011-06-14T22:08:00.000-07:00

this was saturday night ! he he he . had lots of fun at zirca wif khail =) it was just the two of us no others ~ despite bby is down wif fever he push himself to go zirca wif me he he he .
and oh theres this minah she accidentally push me away and i went like TSKKK . n surprisingly she touch my hand and said sorry like 10 times ? haha . not bad i tot minah all ksiao ! bt this minah baik punya ! hahaha .

actuali imah , khai n dee was wif us . but semua gone lps tu ntah ke mana hahah !

and guess what ~ i terjangkit bby ~ down wif fever the next day . hahah . bt my fever on off on off . lol . and oh yaaaa the funny part is .. on that day im the one suppose to take care of bby bcos of his fever bt the other way round instead hahah ! sweet arh ~ can arh ~ hehehe

and for fuck sake . i look so hitam in all of the pics !! anw handsome ryte my bby ?!!

2011-06-09T19:11:00.000-07:00

dis post suppose to be publish last friday haha bt im too lazy to update . after uploading pics i went off to bed . mhmmmm . and oh my hair too long and pics below explain everything .. hahha

dis was idk when . i remember going out to town alone . bt idk for what lol !

2011-06-07T03:35:00.000-07:00

i had a great evening with this amazing guy yesterday =)
i still felt guilty for my wrong doing despite the fact that he already forgave me that night ...
so i make a plan to travel all the way to bukit panjang frm my place after my exam .. just to clear dis doubts away that lingered around in my head since morning . waited for sweetheart for the past 2 hours . bought him dinner too . well , my bby here likes to eat . so i like to feed him with fattening foods . ngom ngom ngom mhmmm . hahah . i dont like to be fat alone . so dts explain =p

while happily waiting .. sumone shocked me to death with his touch . HAHAH . igt kan perogol mana tah baru nak bukak silat . sekali khairul laa ^^ it was suppose to be me that surprise him but the other way round instead . hahah . i was running out of words u knw . i went like " i .. i... i ... i............ " hahahahha .

alamak bang ! bedah gagap la .. hahah ! bby was speechless ................ i was speechless too ??? hahaha . doesnt make any sense ain . forgodnesssake! ... after dt he went up and change .. and mean while .. me . ain aka bedah wanted to cry.. ikr hahah ! its more to tears of joy ! haha . bcos i was really happy to see him ! ive never felt like dis before yknw .. not forgetting with his flat hair , baby face and on top of it his sweet smile =) it makes my happiness so completed =))

pampered him . shower him with my love and tadaaaa wt a good evening =) and oh oh ! baby so cute naoooo . he wore my top ! ahhaha . sweat shirt izzit ? wte it called hahah ! i swear he is so adorable ! bcos the baju so big hahahaha . and i wore his top too =p

im so looking forward for saturday !!!!!! hehehe ^_^

and miracle just happened . alhamdulilah =')

and theres one more video . bt i cant upload it coz can see my boobs ! ahahha so that video utk aku je . kt rumah steam2 sendiri hahhahahahahaha

2011-06-06T08:34:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPILY MARRIED WITH THAT CUTE STUFF ... AT THE BUSTOP . HAHAH ^_^
NOW LETS MAKE BBY !! MALAM PERTAMA ~ HAHAHAHAHAHAH

BEDAH LOVE PAK EH ALWAYS .. XOXO HAHAHAHAH !!!
*SIRAM POKOK*

2011-06-06T00:44:00.000-07:00

I feel worthless. I feel useless. I feel pointless. I don't want to feel like this anymore . god , pls make me strong .
I think my biggest fear is my own mind.

2011-06-05T09:20:00.000-07:00

please dont b mad at me . im so scared ='( i'm sorry . i didn't mean it . i love u . so much . sigh ='( please don't treat me differently . i wanna wrap u around my arms now .

2011-06-05T01:38:00.000-07:00

When cheerleaders fall they fall from extreme heights which can end in a broken neck , broken back , concussion , or you can even get paralyzed . So many cheer leaders have broken ankles , torn acl’s , broken their neck and more while tumbling .

You dont think cheerleading is easy ? Do you KNOW how muscular you have to be to survive as a base or a back spot ? Do you KNOW how bad it hurts to get a knee to the back ? Dropped on your head , HARD ? Do you know what it feels like to get elbowed in the eye , a tooth knocked out , and two bloody noses from one stunt ?!

2011-06-05T01:29:00.000-07:00

So this is what i’m going to do: i’m going to hug you . and i’m not going to let go for a really long time. and i’m going to tell you that i love you . which is actually a pretty good deal . because it means i’ll do anything on the off chance it’ll make you a little less sad .

2011-06-05T01:04:00.001-07:00

I’m afraid of losing you .

I’m not someone with over the top confidence . i get jealous when i see others try to talk to you in a flirty way . i often catch myself second guessing every situation in the worst way possible . it’s a scary thought knowing that there are millions of people out there who have a lot more to offer than me , whether it’s looks , personality or the way they present themselves . i’m selfish, i want you all to myself and i can’t help it .
thank you for staying with me . i know that i'm not always fun to be with but just so you know that i'm grateful .

2011-06-05T00:45:00.000-07:00

i had so much laughter ytd wif my cheer mates ! ^_^ im so blessed to hv u guys =) he he he . and im so happy that dan's finally can tossed me up ! hahah ~ ok idk wt to update actuali hahah . and im bored !! i got exam tmrrw =(( bt im gonna study later at night . bored bored bored ! i wanna eat !! i hate pms ! (perangai mcm sial)

and video below asl boleh je joget hahaha ! so ugleh =(

2011-06-03T10:17:00.001-07:00

unless u're a cheerleader , u'll never understand hw much we really care for each other when were happy , sad , mad or tired . u just cant get it frm any other sport =p

2011-06-03T10:07:00.001-07:00

cheerleading isnt a sport ?

try lifting someone above ur head and keep them sturdy while they twist their body in pretzel forms and smile at the same time . try throwing a person into the air and watch them spin a couple of times and catch them . looping ur hands together like a basket and throw them high enuff they can touch the sky . getting hit , slaped , kicked , elbowed , kneed and shake it off bcoz u hv to keep going . break a couple of arms and legs and still push urself to keep going . stay up late to practice to make urslef better . sweat so much bcoz u hv been doing tucks , bck hand springs , fulls , and even when u run out of swear . u keep going . build ur strength up untill u pass out but get back up and do it again . cry , bleed , get bruises .
then tell me cheerleading isnt a sport !

2011-06-03T09:06:00.001-07:00

i'm a liar bcoz i wont tell u everything .
i'm stupid bcoz sumtimes i'm wrong .
i'm ugly bcoz my face isn't perfect .
i'm a pusover bcoz i like making ppl happy .
i'm a loser bcoz i'm not friend with your group .
i'm fake bcoz i'm too nice .
i'm weird bcoz i'm not like you .
i'm fat bcoz i eat when i'm hungry .
i'm clingy bcoz i don't like to be alone .
i'm insecure bcoz i care about what ppl think of me .
i'm no fun bcoz i'm not always hyper .
dont try to tell me who i am .
bcoz i already knw .

2011-06-03T04:32:00.000-07:00

oh hai .. oh look at my cute fingernail ... cute ryte ...

hahahah more to disgusting ! my kuku bogel already . im too lazy to explain wt happened hahaha .. anw maya gave me alot of new songs ~ yeeeha so sexcited ! hahaha . thantiute . but den nw my hp memory full aleadi -.- k wte .

i cant wait for tmrrw . practicing cheer dance wif amirah ^^
both of us wanna go to wildcards training badly but yea our dance is much more impt than dt . coz theres no much time left . and i swear im worried . 2 weeks to get everything perfect . aint u guys worried too ? haiyoo . anw i hope u girls gonna appreciate me n captain sacrifices .. just dont whine about the dance steps and i hope u guys can catch up . if u knw that u cant better meet tmrrw and practice tgt .... surprisingly NO ONE REPLIED TO MY TEXT MSG #thanks

on top of that ~ ...

received moneh frm nuffnang ~ huahuahua ^^ yipee ? hahahah !

dis was ytd ... maia curled my hair ! ooo love it ! im so gonna get a new tong soon ! big curls he he he . n bby love it too ! lol .

currently theres like no practical lesson anymore . n so we hv to practice for ndp hair up everyday -.- boring D= and i kept on doing bridal hair up hahah . cikgu marah . tpi apa kisah ! esai ! HAHAHAHAH !! wtf . he wants like those future look . ok hint lady gaga hairstyle -.- lol
and i told my cher . nanti ah i wanna kahwin i no need pggl hairstylist to do my hair . i can do it on my own hahaha !

lol . use my own headband . can ah ?

im suppose to study ryte nw . bt im too lazy . i wanna makan maggie now . den myb study for like 10 mins ? AHAHAH no . ok study study . toodles !

2011-06-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

helo melow . hmm had a misunderstanding issue wif bby this morning . woke up and saw his fb status well ~~~ gave me a big question mark . haha . think thru wt i did wrong and so yea waited for his reply ~

he was utterly dissapointed on me .... =( on sumthing ..
so i decided to do sumthing special for him . tho things has already settle .

just to prove him wrong i did this ~

not forgetting i cook sumthing special for him ! barang baik punya~~~ i buat kan dia maggie ? HAHAHAH ! ikr . byk2 maggie . haha abeh mcm mana ? idk hw to cook . i only knw hw to cook maggie . lol ~ and yes can u imagine me doing all those cards ~ letters ~ and cooking within 2 hours ? kelam kabut geng ! hahah . and that gulung2 paper isi kandungan nya adalah kata2 cinta i he he he . 45 kata2 cinta . can ah ?

rush to dhoby to buy that pink box and that small card . and that ribbon too lol . at spotlight . and bby tot i was wif my friends but actuali .. alone . lol . and im suppose to fetch him from his work place but turned out the other way round instead . sorry kanda =( coz i pandai sgt keluar rumah pkl 3 ? n he end work at 4 pm ? stupid much ? hah .

and i swear i cant stop thinking when is the right time to pass it to him hahah !
so hmm decided to pass it after he finish makan my maggie =p haha ~

and bby maluuu . u malu i pon maluu . dua2 maluuu . =p

i hope u love it . i love u ^^

last thing ,

when its time to go separate ways .. bby shed a tear . awwwwwwwww .
me: aww bby why r u crying ?
him: bcos i wont get to see u tmrrw and the next day n the next day n the next day
me: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww !

2011-05-31T09:02:00.000-07:00

I’m afraid . I’m afraid he doesn’t really love me as much as it seems . The things he does with me , he’s probably done with many other girls . Maybe I’m just another one of them . Everytime he kisses me , I can’t help but think about how many other girls has he kissed . Everytime he tells me he loves me , I can’t help but think how many other girls he has said that too . It hurts , it literally hurts . It bothers me to learn new things about him and his past with girls . I’m never going to admit it , but it does .

2011-05-31T05:38:00.000-07:00

two post for today .

im feeling so sick like a g6 . hah . ytd dh penat sgt so tidur dgn rambut basah2 . lps tu bukak aircon . like a boss ~ hahah . pkl 4 pagi terbgn . pegang rambut . masih blm kering D= tidur balik . bgn je massive headache . dont wanna go to skool actuali bt bcos of EFC nya pasal gua turon . cehh turon ! hahahah .

abeh datang skola nari tk berfaedah langsong haha . EFC same old thing . puas hati belajar sendiri kt rumah -___-
lepas tu break . makan pudding psl tk da appetite nak makan . pudding pon tk sedap ! tawar ! ntah tekak i ke mmg pudding nya tk sedap hah .
hair colour nya lesson lagi tk berfaedah . free period . cikgu ckp nak colour rambut ke nak apa ke lantak . i wanted to colour my fringe but my hair blue black so its hard to achieve lighter colour -.-
so i just laze around the saloon like a boss !

tmrrw self declare tk yah gi skolah ! he he he . not coming . bt im heading to skool gym -.- den meeting bby . yay !

this video below i cakap " aku sayang engkau khairul "

my epic face . ok more to minah face hahaha

2011-05-31T04:29:00.000-07:00

alryte first thing first .

sorry if the pic load abit slow ? coz i use photobucket codes . not blogger . blogger pic quality sucks . agree ?

ok next ,

alhamdulilah things has settle btw me n fyda . in a nice way . both apologies sincerely ... its already been 2 yrs this things hv been running around . both are sick and tired of it .
like u stated in ur blog u lead ur way and i will lead mine . so yeap . im nt gonna hear anything frm u . n u nt gonna hear anything frm me =)

anw khail is such a sweetheart . ytd he came all the way to sengkang just to send me to skool . and uhhh ive to reach skool by 8 am . the best part is he stay at bukit panjang x.x uhuu tell me about it haha !
he went out frm his place at 6 am ? and itu timing i masih tgh tido ehk =p ngorok2 . hahha ! surprisingly bby brought breakfast for me ! even tho it's only a bread well its thoughts that counts ! ^^ aaand kebetulan i pon bwk roti utk dia ^^ haha ! aww match make in heaven ... (maya line ) hahah ? *Cric cric*

bby waited for me till i end my class . den off to tamp for lunch ? poor bby . member ngantuk dok ! haha . around 2 he send me bck home . ok okok BEST PART NI !!! reached home . change to my pyjamas and knock out ! cherish every moment .. hahah . and i hv to go bck to skool for my cheer training at 530 pm .

alarm rang at 4 pm aaaand
me: bby where u ? i just woke up .
him: im at home . wt time u keluar ?
me: oh okay 4.30 . wt u doing ? tk tido ?
him: tgh tido ni ! i nk tido balik . nanti wts app i bila u nak keluar .

so as soon as i went out frm my crib . guess whut ? i saw him waiting for me at my void deck ! hahahaha . i was speechless ! ahhaa touching dok ! running out of words actuali . thank you bby . i love u heheheheehhe . *blush*

oh look our trash work . hahahha . hair up ? cant make it . ahahah ugly ! *pics below*

and this is the fake account of mine -.-

2011-05-29T08:53:00.000-07:00

short update . for the sake of bby . haha . hai i love today . mcm biasa jugak kita gila2 .
and wt happened to blogger pic quality ? suck big time -.- shit u . and bby bby bby ohhh like bby bby bby ohhhh sending me to skool tmrrw yay ~

2011-05-28T23:52:00.000-07:00

hai im so excited to meet bby love later ^^ heading to town ~ he he he he . anw ytd for e first time ehk i otp wif hunn till wee hours ~ =p happy ah member ! tu pon aku bbl sendiri kt tepon . hua hua hua . and i cant stop listening to run the show song ! can ah ? but surprisingly lagu major lazer 0.0 hmmm weird ... ok dh bai . zzz

and hello khail ? lambat pe kau mandi ? mandi bunga pe ? cepat boleh ? -.-

2011-05-28T04:06:00.000-07:00

if i ever push you away , i don't really mean it . when i tell you i don't want to talk about it actuali i do , i am just looking for the right words to say . give me a minute , and if i can tell you , i will .
when i get really quiet sometimes , it is because i've too much to say i've thought of too many things to tell you all at once and i don't know wt to say first .
i get immaturely jealous of anyone who gets to see you on a daily basis . and i miss you really easily . i love the way we love some of the same things . and i love how we love entirely different things . my head is a complicated pile of thoughts , and fears , and cravings , and dreams , and this tangled up nostalgia for the past and , somehow , the future . i am flawed and i am human and i am broken and i am trying . and i am one person and i am two hands and i am on heart . and i love you .

2011-05-28T02:58:00.001-07:00

I thought of you today but that’s nothing new i thought about you yesterday and the day before that too . for every day good or bad you'll always be in my mind . =)

2011-05-27T00:37:00.001-07:00

ANOTHER FAKE ACC OF MINE ?! I CAN GO CRAZY SIA -.- WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

2011-05-26T21:03:00.000-07:00

♥

i may be rough at all times . i may get mad at everything u do . i may slap n punch u whenever i like . i may call u names that u dont like . but hunn stay a while and maybe then u will see a different side of me =) like they said " if u cant handle my worst u dont deserve my best "

hunn i knw i behaved like a bitch and didnt treat u good for the past few weeks .. also being so unreasonable to leave u everytime . i was confused dt point of time . i'm not sure what i want but i do now . =)

2011-05-26T11:06:00.000-07:00

haiii ^^ finally i can blog -.-
blogger is behaving like a bitch ytd nite ? kept on forcing me to verify my email thingy . which i had already forgotten my hotmail password -.- fgs . so no choice bt to create new email just to log in to this blogger . TSK !! so anw . i stopped cheer for about 2 weeks bcos of exam . im proudly to say that i did great for my haircut , highlight and rebonding exam . (prac) highlight was fun . coz i manage to complete it within 3 hours ! impossible . haha . my first attempt u knw . and selalu nya i buat punya la selow melow . haircut lagi bagosss . before the haircut my model hair is like super duper messy . haha . n after the hair cut he looked better ! haha . wayyy better . trust me . and nowww his hair is like justin bieber ?? except that his side burnt i keep it long .. rebonding lagi bagusss . tho two of my model last min back out i manage to find a new replacement =) alhamdulilah . and for the first time i manage to do it withing 3 hours ! usually it took me 5 hours to complete it !! p.s. with assistant !! haha . n nw 3 hours without assistant ??? a big improvement for me . im so happy nao . he he he he .

on top of that im coming bck to my cheer ground starting frm next week . yeeehaaaa ^^ missing my genesism badly hehe . esp kiki and amirah =)) and today sphyntrix training . yay ~ n im gonna cut dan hair later lolzx . (Dan sphyntrix )

okay ciaozx xo bimb

2011-05-26T10:51:00.001-07:00

2011-05-22T06:30:00.000-07:00

i had a great day on friday and saturday =) but the hair show thingy is fucking bored to the core -.-V

check in pasiris chalet at 3 pm and the rest of the day is free and easy . hah . meet khail at pasir ris den to far east with maya and iqram . had our lunch at cahaya . den shop shop . headed to tamp to meet tina and su . ydayda went bck to our chalet at 9 pm ? coz we got curfew -.- we must b bck at our bunk by 10 pm . su sneak in her bf . n i sneak in khail . lol . whenever sumone knock the door i will tell khail to hide in the bathroom ... one time he hide in the cupboard -.- and i dont knw why . must b my friends hahah ! so ydayda after my shower i had a bad flu ! sick -.- kental . hahah . khail take good care of me =) and friends too heheh . i feel like a princess !
and at night the plan was suppose to b movie marathon but i was so sleepy n eventually went to sleep . the panadol lor . zzz . and bby watched me as i sleep . hahaha .

the next morning .
woke up at 4 am ALL THANKS TO TINA PHONE !! wt kind of alarm clock was that ?! hahaha . its a scremo hardcore alarm tone . n fgs !! i almost died hearing it . hahahhaah . i was the first one to go bathe and so on n so forth .. n we were the only hairstylist that woke up being so hyper !! hahaha . and bby kept on sniffing my body after i bathe hahah ! kau dh la blm mandi ada hati nk peluk aku ! -.-V brrr . had our breakfast den proceed to the fashion show . nothing much to say actuali .. customer as usual complaint queen . hah . after that took our allowance and fuck off ! hahaha . check out at 10 am . headed to tamp for breakfast . still hungry la ! hahah . and den send bby bck home . aku kan jantan hahha . while on our way home here is some of our epic moments in the train .. well not OUR but mine hahaha !

i was sleeping like a pig and den i suddenly jerk real hard n woke up . bcoz of the sun shine on me haha . n bby laugh -.-
the next one my mouth was widely open . n i was pissed off that khail didnt close it !!
the third one happened the same thing . n after hearing me nagging khail didnt went to sleep n watch me sleep just in case i open my mouth again .. HAHHA !!!
the last one i laughed while im sleeping . hahaha !!!!!! bcos i mimpi apek bus .

burok kan ?!!! abeh yg lagi burok khail tidur berdengkur !! hahahaha . train kalau kosong tk pa ni ramai . lol .

reached bukit panjang around 1.30 pm ? n waited for bby to change . while waiting his mum approached me . she is so soft spoken n nice . haha . n khail came out of no where ? 0.0
send him off to work n buzzz im home ! haha . didnt text him dt much after i reached home coz im too sleepy . woke up at 830 pm . wash up . otp wif bby for a while and bck to sleep . aaaaaaaaaaand im gonna sleep again later . am still sleepy !!

LOOK AT MY ARM . OH MY . SAPAO -.-

2011-05-21T22:51:00.002-07:00

to kai hardwell

i dont understand u . sumtimes u r nice to me and the next min u're not .

i'm still wondering why did u block me in fb ? izzit bcos u cant watch my happiness with sumone else ? or izzit sumthing else ? do u knw that u're part of my happiness too ? and if u cant see my happiness this shows that im stronger than u . remember that period of time when u got att wif dt girl on e 15th of april ? remember i beg u not to leave me ? but u chase me away at jp ? remember the shits u put me in ? remember how hard i cried for u ? remember the 4 months of me having heartache ? remember all this ??? i went thru this on my own hunn . i stand up on my own feet . where were u all this while ? where were u when i needed u the most ? YOU WERENT FUCKING THERE !! fucking heartless . u and ur big ego . ive been so patient towards u . ive been so nice towards u . i did everything to win ur heart back ! EVERYTHING . and wt did i get in return ? NOTHING . ok not really nothing but SHITS . shits and shits and shits .

even tho all of this happened . i still forgave you . and i accepting the fact that u dont want me anymore . but telling me to forget about the past and give no shits about it ?!!! FUCK ! YOU KNW THAT WONT HAPPEN . u knw that i will never forget about us . forget wt ive been thru . and forget about u . i knw u knw that . and i knw u dont mean wt u said . u tend to do things without thinking and REGRET at the end of e day . I KNW U .

u said its too late . wt IT ? maybe i have a rough idea on it . MAYBE .
u ask me to move on and stop being stubborn and FUCK OFF . i did . u ask me to stop putting hopes and cry . i did . u ask me to leave once i found sumone better than u . i did . i did EVERYTHING just to satisfy u . except delete the album at my fb .. u wanna knw why ???? BECAUSE THAT IS THE ONLY MEMORIES I HAV WITH YOU !! PICTURES !! YES !
and now what ? after i moved on u wanna return ? after seeing me with sumone else den u started to appreciate my existent ? dear it took so long just to feel alright . if u said NO to this . den tell me wt is it ? ans me .

on top of it . i dont get it why cant we continue be friends ?? that is what u wanted ryte ? remember ur text msg ? u told me that we can meet bt as a friend ???? remember ?

im confuse . tell me wts wrong . tell me wt r u up to . ans me md khairulhin .

xo ur bimbo . remember ?

2011-05-19T08:35:00.001-07:00

windu ♥

2011-05-19T08:31:00.001-07:00

ok hai . been busy wif skool . hah . anwwww my first attempt ...

leopard pwintzx ? hahaha ! can ah ?

i cant wait for tmrrw ^^ me and the rest of e hair stylist gonna help out wif fashion show at down town east there on sat (ok not all . just selected student .. ) and tmrrw we gonna over night at pasir ris chalet ! yay !

on top of that ......................... meeting khail ^^ yipee ~

ok im sleepy already =p goodnight !

ok outdated pics .. (not really outdated laa . tapi muka si khail ni yg byk -.- lol . ok bye )

2011-05-19T06:07:00.001-07:00

I MISS CHEER !!!!!!!!!! I MISS STRETCHING !! =(( OK I WILL UPDATE MORE LATER . LIKE AROUND 10 PM ? I HV TO PACK UP MY STUFF FOR TMRRW . HE HE HE .

2011-05-16T21:54:00.002-07:00

U aren’t ever going to change bcoz u’ve proven to me dt u can’t . Bt things are going to be different this time . i’m tired of being lied to , i’m tired of being confused , i’m tired of looking stupid n i'm tired of being used . as much as i want to blame u for screwing me over , i knw i can’t , bcoz it’s my own fault for letting u . bt i’m nt going to anymore . it took me awhile bt i’ve finally realized dt i don’t deserve wat u put me thru so i’m done . we’re over for gd this time . there’s no more chances .

2011-05-16T21:54:00.001-07:00

can ah ?

2011-05-13T21:28:00.000-07:00

daddy , i ainun bte md ainuddin cant stop crying since last night . i ainun bte md ainuddin loves u so much . YOU , the one and only man that will never stop loving me and the one and only man that i love so damn much . its painful to watch u in pain . u've been running in n out frm the hospital every week . not forgetting u hv to fought out $300 each week for ur medication ... i dont knw how to help you daddy im sorry . sumtimes i feel like quitting skool n start working n help u out . bt i knw u will disagree with it . so for now i will always pray hard for u .... for u to recover . i love u so much . dont go .... i still need u here . stay strong . i love u .

2011-05-13T21:06:00.000-07:00

harow harow ! finally im updating this dead blog . lol . where got time ! =p
im currently having big break frm cheer . due to exam ! coz i die die wanna go for attachment .. anw all this while i rejected alot of my hairstylist thingy for cheer . lol .... ( i prioritize my cca first den my own course ? ) lol . silly me . so anw after 1 yr and 5 months i finally can do heel stretch !!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY !! lol .

this was first attempt . see my leg isnt high . i grip my leg wrongly . lastly i lean against the thingyy LOL .

after 1 yr 5 months .......

mind the face coz im nt wearing any make up on . zzz .

oh meet aidil ..

i tot i deleted this video . bt actuali i bodoh dont knw how to search -.- ahhaa ! ok toodles ~

daddy is sick . in pain T.T i love u daddy !!!

2011-05-07T21:51:00.001-07:00

i am completely & utterly disgusted with myself . whenever i look in the mirror n i wanna puke. i hate feeling empty, and i have no reason to feel this way , i hate myself . i hate the very thought of myself . i have nothing bad going on in my life yet i feel depressed . i don’t understand why . i’m disgusted . i always have to pretend to be happy everyday . i feel alone all the time . i'm always worrying that i'm not good enough . i cry when i'm confused and frustrated .

2011-05-07T01:55:00.001-07:00

bby im sad ='(
do u knw that feeling you get when you see something that upsets you and your stomach drops and a lump forms in your throat and your eyes swell with tears and your body begins to shake and your heart is racing and your head is spinning and you feel the blood drain from your face and it feels as if you’re about to explode and then that first tear drops and you just break down as your body uncontrollably shakes and you gasp for air as you choke back tears ???? ='((

2011-05-07T01:47:00.001-07:00

it’s the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you . when it hits you , i mean really hits you , all these thoughts and questions rush through your head at once . a sad emotion even starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder ...

what if for some reason things don’t work out ? how are you possibly going to live without them ?

someone that was once a stranger now is the only person you know like the back of your hand . someone you once had no emotions for , now has the power to break your heart . someone you used to never hangout with , now owns most of your time . someone that you thought you’d never love , owns your entire heart . someone you once lived without , you now wish to hold on forever .

when they leave you have no other choice but to live without them . it’s hard and it hurts and it’s going to stay with you forever but if you really , truly , deeply love this person then … the only thing that makes sense … is to respect their wishes , their wants , their needs even if these things hurt you beyond comprehension and reason .

2011-05-07T01:39:00.001-07:00

2011-05-03T04:58:00.000-07:00

I LOVE U BIMBOS !!!

2011-04-30T20:52:00.001-07:00

im currently in this long and confusing process of figuring out who i am and what i want to do in my life ...
im not even upset , hurt , jealous or angry anymore . i'm just tired . i'm tired of putting in more effort than i received . i'm tired of holding on for nothing . i'm tired of u proving me wrong everytime . im tired of getting my hopes up and being dissapointed again .
i wished people stop saying things that they don’t mean at all , and stop hurting those who really holds so much expectations . before long , these could all be gone . but i’d really wonder if you will ever feel the ache from the loss , or do you just carry on with life ? it’s incredible how people don’t fee l, from all that has happened ...

i will always be here for u with open arms but hunn i hope i'm not ur back up plan and definitely not a second choice of urs .

2011-04-30T08:43:00.000-07:00

i'm mad at myself , not you .

im mad for always being nice , always apologizing for things i didnt do , for getting attached , for making u my life , depending on u , wasting my time on u , thinking bout u , forgiving u , wishing for u , dreaming of u . but most of all , for not hating u which i knw i shud .

u were the only person that made me feel beautiful . n now u’re gone , and i’m back to feeling ugly all over again sigh . i miss u kai hardwell . if only u knw . its gonna b the 4th month already . im still in love with u and cant let u go =((

2011-04-30T01:56:00.000-07:00

OMG !!! IM BORED !! SUMBODY SAVE ME !!! IM DYING SOON !!!!!! MAMA KATA NK KELUAR TPI DIA TGH TIDO NI !! =((

2011-04-29T22:48:00.001-07:00

hello everyone ! proper update ok ^^ let me see where shud i start . hmmm . skool ? okay first of all FUCK U PRINCIPAL !!! NABEI GOT NOTHING TO DO LA NI . SO FREE AH AT OFFICE ? 24/7 WARNING LETTER !! KANASAI . SUCK MY DICK . 79 % 80 % pon tetap nk hantar !! every month send love letter to my mum . tsk ! she nt interested la !! married already !!

anw anw i need model for rebonding !! anyone ? sadly dis time round nt foc . only my first model foc . which is amirah . sooo yeap . dont worry its cheap ! like 20 bucks n below ? or 30 bucks n below . so cheap ryteeeee ! anyone interested pm me =) i will start doing rebonding next month . n im gonna rebond my hair soon yay ! thantiute maya heheh .

ok now whut ? ohhhh cheer !
cheer fun lor . esp napfa test ! i didnt do my 2.4 coz of my butt . so pain . incline pull up i manage to do 30 . for sit ups 48 =)) all in 1 min . huge improvement for me . yay ! ok hmm training dh mcm boring lor actuali . cant do advance stunts bcos of e juniors D= luckily gt sphyntrix ! hahha .

and yesterday was friday friday gotta get down on friday ! ^^ off to scape like always . i love my people ~~ haha . thank you u all ! i love u all ! mwah mwah ! met lian after so long ! miss her ~ teheee . ok let the pics do the talking !

I LOVE MY CHEERLEADERS !!

2011-04-28T07:00:00.000-07:00

gonna say goodbye to my curls . straight hair soon ! hehehe . n no i didnt cut my hair . main2 aje la hahaha . life been good so far . n my butt still in pain . will do a proper update soon . tmrrw or weekends la ~ no time no time . 24/7 cheer ~ heheh ok bai !

2011-04-26T05:26:00.001-07:00

HAI I CUT MY HAIR !!!!!!!!! STAY TUNE FOR MORE . WILL UPDATE MORE ON THURSDAY NITE OTEY ?! MWAHHH !

2011-04-26T05:19:00.001-07:00

2011-04-21T06:01:00.000-07:00

i have so many things i want to tell you , but i need to keep reminding myself that it’s not the same anymore . That it’s not right for me to want you to be here for me 24/7 like last time . That i cannot keep burdening you with all my problems even though you’re still as nice to listen to my rants and comfort me . That basically we are not who we were back then . We’re not even we now . It’s just you and i . And I need to learn how to let you go , to live your own life and stop thinking of you .

2011-04-21T05:09:00.001-07:00

blogger pic quality sucks -.- serious shit . tsk . okay sorry ive been busy lately wif cheer n such . no time to use e laptop la deh ..
life's getting stable lately ? lol ! =) ok idk wt else to update la . tmrrw cheer ! yayayayayay i love cheer heheheh . will update more later can ? i wanna update my genesis blog ~ lol D=

2011-04-17T05:58:00.001-07:00

i would like to thank over 700 ppl who make an effort to wish me =)) thru fb , twitter , formspring , calls , msg and so on . u all so sweet =') i love yesterday . thank you ppl for making it happened =))

around 10 plus in e morning sham and the gang came over to my crib n gave me a HUGE SURPRISE !! they knock my door room like one kind . i tot it was my dad or sumthing . n i went screaming like " pintu tk lock masok aje ! " n so i decided to open and all of em went like "happy birthday to youuuuu ... " hahahha ! i screamed like one bitch n hide under e blanket coz of my busuk face !! hello just woke up hahah . they make their move around 12 plus . coz they knw ive plans in e afternoon ..

around 1.30 pm mama n bapak gave me a big surprise again . they went out n bought cake (n my bday present haha ) . bila dh sampai rumah jeeeee "bukak pintu cepat !! " andddddddd .. "happy birthday to you ... " hahah ! n they bought me bicycle ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha at first i didnt believe bt it was trueeeeeee !!!

mira text me up . i quickly makan den siap =) suppose to meet at 3 bt i reached there at 4 !! so sorry >< and oh look ! they gave me balloons ! hahah sweet !

went to bugis . shop shop den to scape flea market shop shop to fareast ! shop shop ! makan at cahaya ~ den continue shop shop ! bck to cineleisure took new pwintss ! omg since centuries i havent take it ! hahha . den to scape and meet =)

i spent like $100 on my accessories ! nyaha okb =))

thank you amira , ikhsan , vivian , minghui , kish *with the mouth pouting* , ida and him for the day . i love u all !!! hehehehe . its like so unexpected la yesterday ..

friends came over to my crib n surprise me
mama n bapak actuali remember my bday .
amira n ikhsan bought me balloons
bumped into vivian minghui n kish n they decided to join us (actuali i force them la )
lastly , a surprise frm him =)

2011-04-15T10:47:00.001-07:00

happy birthday to this playful bimbo lor ^^ i love u bby ! pls stop crying n b strong . u ish big girl aleadi . otey ? eventho u ish sho shad that he didnt make an effort to wish u ='( sighh . okay continue my emo post tmrrw kay . anw im 18 !! not really a big deal for me -.- coz i dont smoke club nor drink ?? LOL !! does drinking alcohol needs certain age of requirement ? wte !! hahaha . anw 18 siol ah ah siolzxxx . like dis can go club everyday !! everyday im shuffling !!

and i fall real hard during cheer that caused me walk like nenek !! is this whut i got on my advance bday present frm u hambali n ida ?! hahahahahah jk =p

2011-04-14T06:19:00.001-07:00

look at what photobucket did to my blog !! its not pretty anymore ! that's it im not gonna update my blog untill photobucket has recovered . (pls update me ) and surprisingly its my account only ?!! -.- nabei ! ..

ok maybe la i wont blog .

i cant wait for tmrrw training bcos i want to stretch like crazy !! THAT IS THE ONLY WAY FOR ME TO CRY OUT LOUD !!! maybe we shud record a video on this guys ! he he he .

and i hav abs !!!!!!!!!!!! wohooo . okay 2 packs . cant really see but whatever !!

and ohh i love this month . dapat $$$$ ajee .
received 200 bucks frm skool .
received 90 bucks frm genesis cheer
received 50 bucks frm nuffnang
received 750 bucks frm skool again
n delay 50 bucks frm sphyntrix

hehehe !! money money yum yum .

2011-04-14T04:16:00.000-07:00

i see dt u eventually moved on , can i just talk to the girl you devotde ur heart to ?

i just need to inform her that u need to be reminded of how charming u are . constantly . and that u need to be told that u're cute bcoz when u're reminded u get even cuter . not forgetting to rub ur head everytimr . and that if she keeps u up late at night .. she better set her alarm to call and wake u up bcos u're a heavy sleeper when u're tired . along with the fact that when u started to cough .. she better remind u to eat medicine eventho u hate it so much . she also needs to knw dt when u gets angry better heal ur heart with a magical kisses . she's gotta learn the 'i love u first '' game . and she NEEDS to repeat all those steps everyday to keep u happy .

xo ur bimbo

2011-04-12T07:31:00.003-07:00

i miss you kai hardwell ='(((((((((((

2011-04-12T07:31:00.001-07:00

I WASTE 70 BUCKS ON THIS !!!! UGLY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I HATE U PHOTBUCKET !!!

2011-04-09T10:00:00.001-07:00

lets move on shall we ? back to reality =)

2011-04-08T00:37:00.002-07:00

i know everyone wants me to move on including him . do u know how hard it is ? its fucking hard . its easy for you to say all that .. well simply bcos u dont have to go through it . u guys don't have any idea how hard ive to go through this completely broken feeling everyday and trying to accept the fact that the person i love so much is no longer here and nothing is left of him . and do you know he hurt me so incredibly much that it seems unbearable for me to go on with me lives ?! i even have to remind this to myself every time " ain pls don't cry anymore and be strong .. " so i hope from today onwards please stop telling me " move on will you ?! " and i know everyone sees me as this strong girl who can get through anything , but inside i'm very fragile . i’ve had so many things thrown at me , and each one has only made a crack ...

and to you , i still remember the words u said . the hesitations , the sighs , the stuttering and everything in between . i still remember the things u promised me . ur words of comfort that made me sleep so good at night . the sound of ur voice lingers as u tried to find the right words to say goodbye in the sweetest was possible . everything that has once felt so real , has now faded far away to a place i sometimes wish to revist . and how could you ! u replaced my spot when that person should be me ='((

thank you for always listening to me when i just needed to vent . thank you for understanding what i needed , for being my best love , and for not giving up on me when everyone else had . now things changed , i'm trying to figure out where to go from here .

xo ur miss bimbo .
i miss you KH .

im running away from reality again . goodbye =')

2011-04-08T00:37:00.001-07:00

thanks for yesterday bimbos . i love u girls more than i love myself =)

and also thanks to my readers i got my nuffnang money =))

2011-04-07T09:27:00.000-07:00

i try to tell myself that im happier now but i was happiest when you were in my life . we do not talk these days and some may call it rude , i call it surviving . it brings back too many memories and the pain is unbearable bcos the truth is ...

i still love you ='(

2011-04-06T22:30:00.001-07:00

running away from reality .

2011-04-03T04:24:00.000-07:00

Remember me ? I used to be your favorite hello , your hardest goodbye , I used to be the person you wanted to talk most and will miss if you didn’t get to talk to me . I used to be someone you wanted to be with everyday and night , I used to be the first thought in your mind in the morning and the last thought before you go to sleep , I used to be the girl who you wished to see me smile when i'm down and who wish I didn’t cry , I used to be the most beautiful girl to you . Yeah , I used to be that person .

2011-04-03T01:01:00.001-07:00

A dedication to a love,

you hurt me . i'm in pain . the pain starts growing , it's something that i can't ignore . hunn , don't tell me to stop crying ..
i cry because you're not here to stop the starting tear.
and sometimes ...
i cry because my life is incomplete without you , it went dull and silent
and sometimes ...
i cry because i'm missing you.

yknw .. u left me to face every single fear . i had never thought you would leave me this way ='(
you leaving me is something i thought you would never do .. yea i expect other people to leave me ..but never you ... i rather feel the pain of missing you . than this pain baby . do you wanna know how does the pain feel that i go through everyday ?

wake up in the morning and act that everything is okay for a moment . then i realize , there will be no good morning kiss , no morning greeting at all from you , my love . so i cry myself out of bed and slowly wipe away my tears while getting ready for the day . as the day progresses , i am distracted by my cheer and also by the people i see and places i have to go . so to everyone out there , they don't even know that i had a rough morning .. the day goes by like normal . only thing that is really different is the lack of you in it . and when i lay down at night , ready for sleep . i realized again , there will be no good night kiss , no good night greetings . i feel that lack the most , and it pulls at my heart , keeping me awake till i can't possibly stay awake any longer . falling asleep on my freshly tear stained pillow . just to wake up the next morning , and do it all again . over and over and over . my life seems to be on repeat , unable to move forward without you .

now you asking me a favour to hate you ? how could i possibly hate you when my love for you is too deep ? like i said before .. i love you so much . too much to let you go . too much to forget you . and too much to ignore you . baby , every day and night i say your name in my prayers without fail . even though we are drifting apart right now . i still do . because i badly want us to be like how we used to ='(

baby , it's too pain to go through all of this every single day even though i've gone through it for the past two months alone . how long must i endure this baby ?
it's not about the waiting time that matters to me but will it all be wasted ? is it worth it ?

it feels so good to let all of this out after two months of keeping it to myself .
love , can i have you to be my greatest birthday present ? please ?

i love you ='( i hope u still do .

lots of love ,
ur miss bimbo . sigh .

2011-04-02T10:10:00.001-07:00

omgee ! i love today ^^ hehe . basically today is like a family day for me ? =D mama , bapak , aunty , uncle , cousins and also their bfs -.-
if i got bf ahhhh i confirm bring one ! den i wont feel those awkward moments -_-
so anw we watched hop movie at ehub . cute plus funny ! oh pleaseee nyaha . around 2 plus swim swim at wild wild wet ~ fuhhh fun . and the life guard over there ahhhhhh ALL SIZZLING HOT KE AI KE AI CUTE MIUTE UH !! lol one of em so friendly . talk to me like err dh kenal for 10 tahun already . dt one oso nt bad ah . cute . lol . and oh i told sarah that im gonna get my self drown at the tsunami pool and den all of em gonna save me and give me CPR ! hahahaha bt yea too bad =( HAHAH . anw sarah mcm prooo like dt nk gi swim err 1.5 m ? hello !! i cannot even touch the floor !!!? AND I CANNOT EVEN SWIM !! -______- zz
not forgetting my kulit nw like mama keling !! hitam berlegam sungguh tk jambu -____-

ydayda dinner at street style hong kong restaurant ? waa so ex siolzx that place . but nvm my family sedara nya president ! sebut je nama nathen confirm plus chop tk yah bayar ! hahahaha -_- lame sia bimbo ............................ so yeap i ate baked rice ? kenyang sampai skrg . alhamdulilah ^^ dennnnnnnnnnnnn bowling time !

okay seriously . I SUCK AT BOWLING !!! LONGKANG AH EVERYTIME . and dis time round i improve alot !! instead of throwing the ball backwards i threw it forward ! lol .. (if u guys get whut i mean... )

and oh i wear shawl/tudong over there . aku seriously mcm minah malaysia . lol . coz ahhhhh dt place mcm kat paris ! sejuk nk mampui . lol .

reached home . wash up . do my prayers . check formspring and twitter . and no . i tk check fb . eventho i have like 100 notifications . lol . i only uploaded random pics and den log out. lolzx . just avoiding sumthing that i dont want to see n might hurt my feelings =))

okokokok shall update more later . i wanna go zzzzzzzzzz nao . i have madrasah to go tomolo . or shud i say later . lol . and up till nw i still havent hafal my al-quran !!! dh lama tk dtg madrasah dok . lol . hafal tu mmg hafal tapi dh lupa sikit2 . tk amal kan selalu . aiyoooo . n im gonna do it later . waa die i still havent take my oral exam and such . mati mati tentu mati !

k toodles =DD

(2 more weeks to my whut ?!!!! .... )

2011-04-01T19:17:00.001-07:00

hai . i had enuf of crying last friday . to think bck .. up till when im gonna be like this . am sick n tired of crying . friends are sick n tired consoling me . and my mum is sick n tired telling me to hv patience . right nw im gonna keep myself busy . im nt gonna check my fb his fb and also his twitter . until sunday nite . i guess ? i just dont want to get hurt . sigh .

and actuali ,
am afraid he gonna hate me . which suppose to b the other round . i tried to hate u . i tried bt it didnt work . nt even a bit . i guess i love u too much . well i did hate u . bt hate that i love u when u dont .

i cant promise u that i can move on . bt i promise to try . like wt im doing right nw D=
this sucks . i hate memories . coz it's stopping me frm moving on .

and its okay if u dont wanna return bck this love of mine . i guess , admire u frm afar will do .

=(

lots of love ,
miss bimbo

2011-03-31T01:27:00.001-07:00

i love yesterday ;DDD

too bad esah couldnt tag along .

soooo i drew dis pic for her ..

dan's angles .. (not bimbos bt angels . LOL )

thank you ida norhan for this victoria secret make up kit . =DDDD

thats all . LOL . lazy to blog la . and nuffnang like cb . -.-

2011-03-29T09:27:00.001-07:00

2011-03-27T23:56:00.001-07:00

naisee . i love the lyrics . ='(

It’s raining, it’s pouring
A black sky is falling
It’s cold tonight

You gave me your answer
Goodbye
Now I’m all on my own tonight

And when the big wheel starts to spin
You can never know the odss
If you don’t play you’ll never win
We were in heaven you and I
When I lay with you and close my eyes
Our fingers touch the sky

I’m sorry baby
You were the sun and moon to me
I’ll never get over you, you’ll never get over me

2011-03-27T23:43:00.001-07:00

this was saturday . before i got sick . accompany nad to kk hospital .

den meet up wif jess rina and milk boi ? lol . slack there till night .

then started to berak2 . vomited in e cab . sorry uncle bt im nt drunk . lolzx .

masai day for me . the end .

2011-03-27T23:13:00.000-07:00

my lips is ugly . pfft ! sick big time . mama hv been pampering me for the past two days . thank you ma . i love u so much . she didnt slept too . sigh . i feel so guilty . its like imma burden to her . doctor gave me 2 jabs in total . i hate u doctor . so painful u knw ?! bcos of this i cant go to genesis chalet and tk boleh jumpa fliq bimbz jugak =( sho shad . hopefully tmrrw i can go out n meet my genesis family =((
pray hard for me please .

2011-03-24T21:52:00.001-07:00

kiki edit dis pic . so tiute . haha . anw yesterday training was awesome-NESS !!! omg . i learn alot of new stunts . bt of course i kept on falling ... bt!!! i manage to complete my task at the end of the night =D den .................. i randomly ask e coach to teach me bck tuck on the air . so i tot do the theory first . but den he told me to go up n just tuck my leg n automatically i will turn .. so i went like 0.0 okkkk.. n so it did !!! OMG !! happy siolll . i did tuck n turn bt i kept on 4getting to cradle . n that cause injury . i fall real hard . got punch in the face la . backside hurt la . n the most scariest part they didnt get to catch me lol . sumore no mats. sakit , gila . lol . ok i show u ppl wts b.toss back tuck is .

yes i did dt . but mine was only 1 round n mine is not perfect like hers . duhhh . gonna take video of it next week . and video below is aku jatuh mcm nangka busuk . sakit gila . n aku adalah yg terbaring mcm nk mati hahaha .