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Friday, April 8, 2011
12:37 AM
i know everyone wants me to move on including him . do u know how hard it is ? its fucking hard . its easy for you to say all that .. well simply bcos u dont have to go through it . u guys don't have any idea how hard ive to go through this completely broken feeling everyday and trying to accept the fact that the person i love so much is no longer here and nothing is left of him . and do you know he hurt me so incredibly much that it seems unbearable for me to go on with me lives ?! i even have to remind this to myself every time " ain pls don't cry anymore and be strong .. " so i hope from today onwards please stop telling me " move on will you ?! " and i know everyone sees me as this strong girl who can get through anything , but inside i'm very fragile . i’ve had so many things thrown at me , and each one has only made a crack ... and to you , i still remember the words u said . the hesitations , the sighs , the stuttering and everything in between . i still remember the things u promised me . ur words of comfort that made me sleep so good at night . the sound of ur voice lingers as u tried to find the right words to say goodbye in the sweetest was possible . everything that has once felt so real , has now faded far away to a place i sometimes wish to revist . and how could you ! u replaced my spot when that person should be me ='(( thank you for always listening to me when i just needed to vent . thank you for understanding what i needed , for being my best love , and for not giving up on me when everyone else had . now things changed , i'm trying to figure out where to go from here . xo ur miss bimbo . i miss you KH . im running away from reality again . goodbye =')   |
