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Sunday, August 15, 2010
3:18 AM
no wonder yesterday i gt no mood at all. PMS. hah. oh before dt, HI AYM!!! HAHAHAH! gt to knw he everytime kpo2 baca my blog ar =P esok kita jumpa okay. siap kau. HAHAHAHA hmm today pergi madrasah. membuta. haha. except for fiqh lesson. interesting. ustazah bersyarah tentang "bapa ustaz, ibu ustazah, anak mcm syaiton" hah. interesting. al-quran lesson. haa kau x.x suppose to hafal quran! i cuma boleh hafal satu ayat. itu pon tk betol. ngantuk gila. tk msk otak. hah. den blabla. tido dlm bus. terlajak gi bedok (Y) sampai rumah je terus lepakzxxxx. ngantuk to the max. tido pkl 11.30 terbggn pkl 5!! -.-VVV btl2 nyer ngantuk. hah. and sedih i tk leh puasa hri ini ): baru rancang nk buka puasa dgn keluarga ku ): nari semua dtg rumah i buka. wasted! sedih doh. i nk puasa full ): sedih doh. and yessa! HOLIDAY!!!! =DDDD oh dan ini bulan ramadhan. harus penuh dgn kesabaran (: insyallah everything btw us will be okay. amin.  if i ever push you away, i don't really mean it. when i tell you i don't want to talk about it actuali i do, i am just looking for the right words to say. give me a minute, and if i can tell you, i will.i try so hard struggling with the mix of real and perfect at the same time. at the moment, i am working on the ration. when i get really quiet sometimes, it is because ive too much to say ive thought of too many things to tell you all at once and i don't know wt to say first. i get immaturely jealous of anyone who gets to see you on a daily basis. and i miss you really easily. but i also like that we can be a p a r t and we both are okay. space is good too. i love the way we love some of the same things. and i love how we love entirely different things. my head is a complicated pile of thoughts, and fears, and cravings, and dreams, and this tangled up nostalgia for the past and, somehow, the future. i am flawed and i am human and i am broken and i am trying. and i am one person and i am two hands and i am on heart. and i love you.   |
